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[October 20, 2009 @ 10:37am] |
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Sorry for the angsting guys. I know you probably don't wanna hear about it.
Feeling a bit better after revisiting Emancipation, the story I wrote for Writing Fiction class about Caelestis and Adonis who will be playing big roles in the re-write of Book 2 for NaNo this year. They were pretty big characters anyway, but it looks like they might try to steal the show in the rewrite. It's just that all the stuff with Anna (the main character) is pretty solid, so I've been tweaking continuity with Caelestis in order to get myself excited about writing it.
She's really quite a hagbag, but I love her.
Looking at Emancipation again was sort of funny, because the writing is as solid as it is weak. It's coated in flowery phrases that are really great, and yet I feel like I can punch holes through parts, but I can't figure out exactly where those parts are. Should I rewrite Emancipation, too?
I was gonna link to where I posted this story before, but it looks like I haven't. o_o Odd...
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[October 18, 2009 @ 1:38am] |
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Apparently I was not really in the Honours course just in the Honours program.
Quitting school sounds great right now. (Don't worry, I'm not that courageous.)
I thought I was feeling better, but I'm not.
I don't want to do anything.
Pardon my spam.
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[October 12, 2009 @ 9:31am] |
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Yeah, I suck at updating. Sorry guys! I haven't been around LJ much lately - not because I don't want to but... I dunno. Busy, I guess!
Supposed to be going to an art sale at the end of the month, but I fail at actually working on anything. Trying to put a calendar together except it turns out that I actually need quite a bit of new artwork. (BTW: Does anyone want a Those Without Shadows calendar?)
We'll see if it works out! I guess.
In the meantime I've been playing Dungeons & Dragons with ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) cephiedvariable and having a great time. The D&D group is my new fandom, which makes me a big loser. It's only been a couple of weeks, but I'm so invested. <3 Look forward to lots of art, guys!
Back to school work, and waiting to be picked up for turkey.
BTW: Happy Thanksgiving!
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| "Princess" |
[October 02, 2009 @ 11:30pm] |
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Things are going pretty well for me, guys! Sorry I haven't updated. I just always love to blab about personal stuff on my LJ and never fun things. Maybe next time I'll tell you all about my Honours Thesis.
I'm pretty high right now on all sorts of stuff. Figuratively, of course.
1. Evangelion 1.0: You Are (Not) Alone was fucking amazing.
2. I may be getting into the Honours program after all? An hour of working on my thesis this morning yielded two strong pages of info. I never realized how well I've thought it all through.
3. A Beautiful Dream is finally recapturing my heart. Hopefully I can find time to work on it next month.
4. I've been playing D&D with cephiedvariable-tachi and I'm so freaking excited about it ALL. THE. TIME. DON'T GET ME STARTED GUYS, SERIOUSLY. Last week I thought through my character so now she's really solid! This week A ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP IS DEVELOPING AND I'M SORT OF REALLY EXCITED. How does anyone have the patience to develop stuff? LOL. ♥ Dulcemer~!! ♥
5, New friends rock!
P.S. Remember my roommate cousin I didn't even get to spend a post talking about? She left today to live with some other cousin. This is sort of discouraging because we got along great and she did a lot of my dishes for me, lol.
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[September 22, 2009 @ 10:06am] |
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I have the coolest conversation partner in the universe.
She came back from her summer in China and brought me pictures, two beautiful jade bracelets, and says that her dad says if I wanna stay in China I can crash in the apartment upstairs that they got for free.
My honours adviser (they always spell it with an e) was also very encouraging and actually seemed quite happy that I wanted to come back to do my thesis with her. "Get out there," she told me to do with my free year. "Do something you can only do now." She reccomended Katimavik, but I'm an old hag, lololol.
Hopefully the path will make itself clear.
Edit: on a whim I signed up for the Pitch the Publisher on Word on the Street.
WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING?!?!?!?! AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111111111111
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[September 21, 2009 @ 8:46am] |
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So no, I can't get into the Honours program this year. When I went in to talk to Dr. Bowlby he never really said "no", he just talked about all the cool stuff I could be doing while Dr. E was on Sabbatical. An internship in another country, a creative writing program, the King's journalism program... Maybe.
I'll think about it.
Don't worry, though! I'm not hurt by this, I just don't really know what else I could be doing next year. I guess the answer is "getting published"! Why not, right?
A 2010 graduate is me!
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| Everyday is a Struggle!!! |
[September 16, 2009 @ 10:28pm] |
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Talked to Dr. E. She says she'll do my thesis with me. "I'll work you hard." "Oh, I know you will." Except she's going on sabbatical next year. Crap.
Bowlby says he'll "see what he can do" to get me into Honours. BTW, my GPA is lower than I thought. THAT'S GREAT. I have an appointment to talk to him tomorrow morning. When I told him what I wanted to do, he made an annoyed sound. Have people done this before? Tomorrow morning I will convince him this is a great idea!!! Wish me luck!
If only I could figure out what "the word" at the end of DDS2 is. After a second look it doesn't look like Om at all. It actually looks more like "love", but even that is a stretch.
BTW, last day for registration is Friday, so if I don't get in by then I don't get in. :D
So! Lower GPA. No extra year. Wow! Let's see how this all works out, huh? Wish me luck, guys!!! Send me things to help me feel better, plz.
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| More School Crap + Guilt |
[September 11, 2009 @ 12:22pm] |
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So I discussed my honours problem yesterday with a fellow student who told me "your GPA HAS to be three". Followed by "Mine was 2.99 and they wouldn't let me in."
So I've come up with an alternate plan. I will still go to see Dr. Bowlby and talk to him about Honours, but if it really is a problem and I can't get in my next stop will be Dr. Nancy Ehrard. I'll ask her honestly if my topic is something she could possibly do with me, and if not I'll accept it all and graduate this year with a Major in Religious Studies and a Minor in Creative Writing.
If she does want to do it with me, I might drop a couple of religious classes and take Writing Fiction: Advanced (if I can get in with almost no new writing material).
I really wanna write that thesis.
I decided to maybe waste my time on another year of university after recieving a couple of nice messages from my cousin on Facebook after griping about it.
Chris: You never know - I would not have told one that I would spend 9 years in university AFTER high school!
Me: At least you got a job out of your school, lol. Religious Studies, for the win!
Chris: Just study it religiously and love what you're doing!
In other news, the CEO of Chapters is blacklisted from the Religious Studies department and no one wants to shop there because of it. Heather Reisman supports some charity that involves Israeli soldiers. My peers at chapters claim it involves people who chose to leave the country after their miliary service or something like that. The other side states the money goes to support Jews who are not from Israel to go into the obligatory years of service in the military. The whole thing leaves a bad taste in my mouth. By working there, I am inadvertantly supporting her and this potentially pro-Israeli bias. Eep.
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| I'm in such a difficult educational place. |
[September 10, 2009 @ 9:57am] |
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So. I would love to write my honours thesis this year to graduate in the fall. Unfortunately, to get into the honours program you need to have a GPA of at least 3.0. My GPA is at 2.97. To go this route I would have to take the Honours thesis classes, plus two more religious studies courses per semester to graduate with honours.
I also want to graduate with a Creative Writing minor, so I'm taking Writing Poetry. These courses require a lot of work, however.
And because I got a big fat D in Japanese the last time I took it, taking it again and getting a decent grade would cause my GPA to skyrocket. If I graduate with Honours and a GPA of 3, I might not be able to get into Graduate school, anyway.
So at the moment I'm signed up for: Introductory Japanese, Writing Poetry, Religion and Science, and the Catholic Church Today. Hopefully I can talk to Dr. Bowlby and get into the Honours program. Then what do I drop? More than likely Japanese, anyway. Sigh.
If my Honours thesis thing doesn't work however, I'll be able to downgrade to three courses per semester: one religious studies course to graduate, Japanese, and Writing Poetry.
But then I wouldn't have my honours. :(
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[August 29, 2009 @ 2:47pm] |
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Drowning in the afterglow of awesome that was The World Ends With You. Ahhhh, it was so good~!!!! I knew it was going to be, but I wasn't expecting THAT.
<3<3<3<3 This is why I love video games.
I totally have an idea for a big painting for this game, too. I just can't decide whether or not to paint it on a huge square canvas or two large rectangle ones to keep the DS's look. I also may have an idea for a very ambitious fic, which means I probably won't do it, lol. Argghhhh, it was awesome~!!!♥
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| I write riveting subjects, I tell you. |
[August 27, 2009 @ 11:41am] |
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Here's some art you'll only see here or on my website because it's spoileriffic for my story. Ending scene shot! Go!
( What I Need Most... )
I'm going to be cleaning today for my cousin, who is moving in a week from today. Or at least, some of her stuff is moving in then. I have to decide what I can or can't leave in the computer room.
It helps that all of a sudden, we're getting a crapload of furniture. Tim's aunt is giving us some shelves and stuff while Tim's parents are suddenly giving us a new couch and love seat. Next week, this is going to be a very different-looking apartment!
Trying to get that Zelos/Colette out on paper so I can re-write it. The first draft will be crap, and I will re-write it and everything will be lovely.
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[August 25, 2009 @ 10:28am] |
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I still haven't applied for Poetry.
So it looks like my little netbook's headed to the shop. There's a lot of stuff on there that's lost forever. Sigh. Hopefully I can get it back in time for school. It's going to be hard to let my little girl go... *sob*
Also, it looks like my cousin might be moving in with Tim and I for a few weeks as she's starting school at SMU and hasn't found a place to live yet. This makes me nervous because 1. I haven't had to deal with a roommate for a while but 2. I got a two-bedroom apartment just for this reason. So as glad as I am to justify having a two-bedroom apartment, I'm also a little nervous that my private little home isn't going to be so private anymore. I think I should get the hell over it since it's only going to be temporary. I'm making mountains out of molehills.
It'll be nice since we'll be able to get a little extra cash and I like Alyshia. I just never get to spend time with her. So here's my opprotunity!
Finished Breath of Fire 3 the other night! I have a fic I was writing for it on my laptop. -_- It was really good, but far less solid and fantastic than Breath of Fire II. I can't wait to play IV, but the next couple of weeks will be for mopping up Eternal Sonata and Batman: Arkham Asylum.
Edit: Working on a Zelos/Colette fic I'm hoping will be as depressing as relares's stuff, lol. BUT I GET ALL SELF-CONCIOUS WHEN I TRY TO DO ANY FIC THAT ISN'T SUPER SHORT. Please, Dawn! Persevere for this one~!!
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[August 18, 2009 @ 3:09pm] |
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It's hot in Halifax these days. Phew!
Tim managed to get us a new keyboard at Futureshop for under $10, so the PC is operational again (which is good because I wanted to update my deviantart and I wouldn't be able to scan it with the netbook.) My fingers aren't used to these keys yet, though. Every time I go to owkr I have the sayme problem with the beyboards there. Even just how sensitive it is messes me up.
My Tomorrows With You by ~kaiousei on deviantART
I miss sharing an artblog, Porku!!! Afujiiii!!! D:
So after a couple of days of reading/doodling away the afternoon, I spent all morning on the computer. @_@ I know I need to get the Tales of Tales update done, but it's a bit of a bummer, still. Oh well, I ran out of Blue Beetle anyway.
The netbook is still shot and I spent part of this morning talking to a very useless support person on the Acer help site. I also ordered my tax info because I lost it and needed it for my student loan, applied for as much of my loan as I could, (why did I put it off?) and signed up for the Ghosts seminar. I think I should apply for Poetry soon, because it apparently only has three students. I wonder if it's because he hasn't had many applicants or if it's because he's a douchebag.
Almost done Breath of Fire III - the ending just crept up on us. Dying to play Tales and also re-play Final Fantasies. I don't know which I would rather.
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| Dawn is Win |
[August 14, 2009 @ 10:41am] |
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So my laptop has been acting strangely. It would randomly not go into standby mode when closed, so I might open it the next day and discover it scorching hot. It was getting rediculous when the other morning I opened it up to discover this and the keyboard wouldn't work. I tried resetting it and now it tells me to insert a boot disk and insert a cable into the netbook - a laptop which shouldn't need a cable nor has a disk drive.
So to fix it, I need an external optical disk drive.
So in the meantime I was using our PC for whatever and I was in there the other night. This room has no lamp, though, and as I was getting up to go to bed, I took my things and turned to hear an apocalyptic crash. The monitor fell over onto the keyboard. How exactly this happened, I have no idea. So I fussed and made sure the monitor was okay only to discover the next morning that the keyboard no longer works, and the computer is stuck on a login screen.
So. I've been doing my necessary surfing on my blackberry.
Yep.
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[August 08, 2009 @ 11:01pm] |
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Stuff.
I got the best paycheck ever yesterday. It wasn't terribly big, but it feels really good to have a respectable amount of cash in the bank. I got to buy stuff today. And by stuff, I mean I bought a really cute pitcher for lemonade, because it says 'lemon' on it and a matching glass. I used it a minute ago and it might actually suck at pouring 'cause I made a huge mess. Then again, it might just be me. I sort of suck all the time, lol.
I've been out of rice for a while. I can't believe how much rice I actually eat. I think I might die without it soon. Wendy has a bag for me but it's heavy and I'm trying to get her to bring it up when she has a drive, lol.
Also, been asking around about an artist table at HalCon. I guess they're running low. An 8 foot table for $80 is good, right? Need to start makin stuff.
Now back to reading fanfiction. <3
Busker festival is on! Going tomorrow, yay!
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[August 06, 2009 @ 12:10am] |
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I know I need to shut up since I'm finally getting some hours, but it feels like the more I work the less I want to. I like customers and helping them, but it just does a toll on me somehow. Now that I'm working a fair bit, I just want to sit at home and doodle and hermit all day. I'm going nuts because I did stuff today and I'm doing stuff tomorrow, while I just want to hermit. I hate myself so much sometimes, lol. I just wasn't cut out for this.
Today I went through and read a bunch of my old fanfiction and I must admit I was pleasantly surprised. It doesn't all suck! Some of it sucks, but it wasn't as horrendous as I was expecting. Inspired, I went through ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif) 30_hugs and plotted out my next 20 Zelos/Lloyd theme and wrote out a potential one for later. I need to play the game again to write those, for sure. I'll need to ninja it back from agawa_jean!
Also, my second book, A Beautiful Dream sucks ass, lol. My memories told me it might still be okay, but the reality is, no. It needs to seriously be rewritten. Arg. Let's just hope it doesn't take three years.
Running out of steam on the Tales of Tales update. I might just update it with what I have now soon. An update is an update.
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| Worked on the Weekend |
[August 03, 2009 @ 9:49am] |
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My mom and dad were divorced before I can remember. What I do remember is growing up with Tony Murray at my mother's side. He was a quiet guy who enjoyed video games and the guitar and introduced me to X-men. He was like a stay-at-home dad, since he never had a job. I like to think we were pretty close, or as close as a four - to - nine year old can be to an adult. One day he went away to take care of his mother, and a few days later we woke up to find flowers on the table and mom told us he wasn't coming back. This brought us into the Scott period of our lives, which is a whole other story.
Anyway, so I found him on Facebook and kind of eyed him for a while before I officially added him as my friend a few days ago, opening my message with "Hi Dad!" He asked me how I was and proceeded to be speechless, sending me songs that he knew I used to like. <3 He's been moving around the states with his diploma in electronics that he never used when I was a kid, currently on a contract in Chicago. He's not surprised I still play video games, he's impressed I've written novels, he doesn't know what Chapters is and he wants to come to my graduation.
I understand that my relationship with Tony is unusual - something not many people have, but it feels to me like he's my father figure #2 if not #1 because I don't remember being raised by my actual father. Followed by Scott who wasn't much of a father figure to the more reliable Chichi and Michael. I still think Tony was my favourite. Mel's all like "I've been wanting to talk to him forever!" Except she knew he was on Facebook and never added him. He had a bigger influence on me, I think. I've been seeing too much of her if I'm revisiting these complexes.
I'm so happy right now. I'm just high on life. <3
Our Lady Peace was in town yesterday. I really wanted to go, but we're a bit desperate in the money situation at the moment. Arg! ;_;
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